Rejection.

Lost in the middle of nowhere
I find myself trembling
My footsteps are heavy
My hands are cold
Everywhere seems to be an illusion
A gateway, a door to a brighter place
I do not know which way to go

Give me a sign, Lord
Show me the right door
Lead me to the right path
I see gloominess with fallen leaves
There is no damp ground
Cracked, famine-dried nature pavement
Nothing is left with me
My pockets are filled with sand
I dress like a beggar

Is this the end of the world?
Am I able to gain a second chance?
Feeling empty inside
I let myself down again
No confidence, no strength to lift my head up
Alone in the midst of strong hasting wind
I need to find a good riddance of the worst

Doors are never open always
It is good to be closed once in a while
By then, I will get ready
Be completely amazed
With a whole new world behind that door
Opened doors never surprise me.
All I need now, is the right key
Just have to make sure now what world I would like to see
And this is the only way to encourage myself
To overcome rejection in life.

Never Cherish.

Conflicts at work
Push me too hard to the edge
My boss is dominating, dictating
My colleagues keep matters to themselves
Without confidence standing in this battle field
I always know there is one person being there for me
I just barely cherish him.

Indulge in negative emotions
I cried and sound devastated on the line to him
Never the first time, I cut the conversation again
Used to his tenderness and care
I ignore his numerous phone calls after
I always know there is one person being there for me
I just barely cherish him.

Meet up with him after work
I throw tantrums on him, release tensions
He just kindly ask what happened
Give me presents, a few drawings of me
Saying there will be more for me
I always know there is one person being there for me
I just barely cherish him.

His two older pretty cousins come up to him
Asking him out for a chat
I wait alone for him at his house
Share religious views with his relatives
Complain about my working life to a friend
I always know there is one person being there for me
I just barely cherish him.

He come back with his cousins
They look sulky, shifting their eyes at me
I know they must have told him something
Holding his hands tight, walk with him back to work
Pestering him with suspicions and questions
I always know there is one person being there for me
I just barely cherish him.

He give me answers finally
I want a break up, he speak out
Heartbreaking, I cry and yell at him
Why didn't you break up with me earlier
When I haven't love you this much
I always know there is one person being there for me
I just barely cherish him.

I missed how he looked at me in the eyes
I wish to get his phone calls again
I never told him I love his drawings of me
I loved the way he held my hands tightly
Staying with me no matter how his family rejected me
I always knew there is one person being there for me
I just never cherish him.

Make A Choice.

You have little money left in your pocket
Will you spend it on an ice cream
Or save it up for the next bus fare?
You have a bottle of water
Will you quench your thirst
Or use it to clean your bleeding wound?
You have a recycle bag in hand
Will you reuse it for the next grocery shopping
Or put it aside, left forgotten?

Life is a sum of choices
It might not be easy to make a decision
When people around gives you different opinions
Saying things that confuses you
Don't worry, stand firm in what you believe
You know what is best for yourself
You know which path best suits your hopeful journey
Never give up believing in your dreams
But never turn down good advices from others
These allow you to get a clearer picture
These add-ons may direct you to better choices.

Whether decisions made is beneficial or damaging
It is a choice of yours made in life
Do not make it a regretful one
As you can never collect spilled milk back together again
Always consider the effects and consequences
As a cracked vase can never be perfect again
If you decide to get a new vase later
Make sure this time you will handle it with care
If you cannot afford a new vase
Turn the cracked vase around
I'm sure there are perfect spots on the vase
That outshines the flaws.

Leave the past and move on
If you can't find a way to mend it well
Heavy rain and mists blurred your windscreen
Just make sure your windscreen wipers operate well
And you are being cautious and alert
Then you are able to take a better view of the road ahead of you

The Ocean.

Stepping towards the shore
Little shells and stones beneath my feet
Waters running through my wiggling toes
I know I am getting closer
To the ocean, the heart of sea lives
Lowering my body into the waters
Put on my snorkeling mask
I am leaving the shore.

Beneath the surface of the ocean
I find peace from the tiniest noises
Had my life vest on
I leave behind worrying thoughts
Away from the city life
This is one precious moment that I could wish for.

Further away from the ocean
I see corals and fishes
This is the nature, the gift from God
Paused for a moment, widen my eyes
I wish this moment could last forever
It is only further away from the shore
Where I could see varieties of colorful fishes
It is only by going into the deeper ocean
Where I could see beautiful corals
With little lives depending on them.

Have some white bread in my hand
I see fishes swimming towards me
Spread out the little soaked bread crumbs
They grab hungrily, aggressively
I am thrilled with the close distance with them
They are moving around me, in front of my eyes
Beautiful, amusing, jubilant
I seized the moment.

Stepping towards the future
I will have to face issues, difficulties
But with the treasures in life that I foresee
With courage, I will take charge and pace forward
Leaving away from the safe zone.

I will not be able to see beautiful fishes now
But I will see them, together with the beautiful corals
Further away from the shore
When I have more bread crumbs in my hand.